Between Loyalty, Personal Achievement, Family Expectation, and Ideal Life

In our career, especially when we start establising our career there are many choose that we are facing with. This step bring us in dilemma situation. That is what now i facing with.
At this time i have job in one of PMA (Perusahaan Modal Asing) in Indonesia, more special i working in Japannese company, with good position, enough salary and clear career step. I'm is newbie in this company, stil six month here. I'm join in this company after enroll and pass the selection process of this holding company (one of the biggest company in indonesia with total employee) so of course i thanks to God for all that i have.
But as usually, human have ambition and disatisfaction, sometimes this good but sometimes this also forbiden. Last week i enroll oil and gas company that owned by goverment, and this afternoon i got call for following the selection process. Honestly, join in this company is my goal when i was at university. So this condition take me to the dilemma, because now i still working and the selection will held in working days. Another dilemma is because i still new in this company, still there are nothing big that i give to the company, its not so ethic if i leave the company. Even also there are no guarantee that i will pass in this selection. But if i make comparation this situation is seem a boy with girlfriend made approaching to other girlfriend. So is what i do is betraying??.
My father of course want me to join in this goverment company, and i'm sure that will make him proud. This is also my goal, my personal achievement (one more time there are no guarantee i will pass the selection. But i also have loyalty side, my thanks to my company now, how they have give good treat to me, how they very welcomed to me.
Dilemma

Why I Write

Why I Write


When I young, and maybe now I also still can called young, I have no interesting in reading, so of course I never write something. But lately I started love reading, especially novel. Perhaps this is late, but in Indonesian quotes there a sentence “ Better late than never”.
So what is the relations between reading and writing?
This is not because I want to became a writer, but this is because I want to share my experience, my story to other. Maybe my story can give inspiration to other…with my bitter story can give motivation to other, haha. I also heard quotes which motivate me to writing, that is :
“Story only worthy when it shared”
“Unspoken thoughts only get you nowhere. If you can’t speak out than write it out”
So, if you want to make your story worthy and share your experience with other persons, maybe you can write your story.

Is That Enough?

First i want to say sorry if awhile you read my blog make you confusing. I know that my english is bad (acakadut), but i want to learn writing in english by this blog, is that wrong? If any complaint just come to me.
In this time, i have one year complete have account in blogspot. Maybe not to many post that i made, but i will try to increasing my creation. If one year ago my status still a student in university, now i have different status, more responsibility, less time for a moment like this (a lazy time for doing nothing).
Introspection today is about what i get now
Yes..... Human is a creature that never felt satisfied with what they get..because we only human. In this theme we must seeing not only from one side, because in other side unsitisfied is positive, eager to learn, to achieve, to progress is came from unsatisfied.
If I think again about what I get now, I should thanks to the god for what I have get. Me which from elementary school till now is a bastard, can get good enough job, in good enough salary, in big enough company. Maybe there still many of my friend which get better company and better salary than me, but exactly they deserved for that, because they had been make more effort than me.

What should i do with what i get now (income that's i mean). Syafi'i Antonio, master of islamic finance, suggest about allocation of our income. This is his suggestions :
1. Saving
2. Pay Loan (If any)
3. Zakat
4. Invest
5. Shoping

Okay, because this is sunday and i'm still not clean yet my vehicle, enough for today..
April-10-2011
Sunday afternoon, in East Jakarta